Thursday, July 27, 2017

Gone Fishin'

We’d walked 20 minutes in to find a spot away from the madness of Utah's Pioneer Day crowds who were crossing lines and fighting over the same stretches and bends of the river. There was no one around but our party. Hip-deep in the waters of the Heber, we fished our private bend in peace all morning, surrounded by mountains and trees.

It was one of those outings when the few trout that were biting were spitting our hooks faster than we could set them.  We’d had other trips where we’d all pulled fish out in almost ludicrous numbers and others where we’d each caught three or four. This wasn’t one of those trips. A few hours in and none of us had landed a single fish.

My daughter was the first to keep one on the line. I was, as I always am, a proud dad as I watched her play out the fish. It was, by the curve of the rod and her effort, a good size. Gradually, she took the fight out of it. When she finally brought that German Brown to the net it was a good 17 inches and fat on worms delivered by the recent high water.

My nephew was next to bring one in. It wasn’t big or much of a fighter, but he was glad to have finally caught one that day.

Staring down the hour when we’d need to make that 20-minute walk back to hit the spa before our lunch date, I was still without a catch. It had been years since I’d gone home without having caught at least one. We’d tried a lot of flies that morning, and I was using the one the others had caught their fish on, but nothing was happening.

The kids were breaking down their gear and draining their boots for the long walk back, and I was dropping a few last lines in to run out the clock. I’d been all along the bend that morning and had ended up right where I’d begun, at the bend on the inside of a bubble line. I was thinking to myself, “well, the kids had fun, and that’s the main thing” when my indicator took a plunge and then shot back up. I pulled my rod skyward, but there wasn’t any tension on the line.

The fly had been taken and spit out quickly. The fish had figured out that what it had bitten wasn’t a bug. I knew where the fish was, but could I catch it before we had to head back?

I whipped my line back and forth and then drifted it over the same spot. My indicator shot down and right back up again before I could pull up on my rod and set the hook. I prepared another drift.

At the exact same spot inside the bubble line, my indicator went down for the third time. I pulled my rod up toward the sky. This time I felt the fish on the other end of the line, heading toward the opposite bank. I stripped line to give it a run and then pulled it back in. I had a fighter on the line, and if I wasn’t careful the line was going to break, and that fish and my rig would be gone. I held it until my rod bent too far and then stripped out more line, letting it run and then brought it back in, swinging my rod toward the net, thinking I’d tired the fish out.

It took to the air. The Brown Trout glistened in the sun as it shot whole, twisting and turning, from the river.

“It’s going to spit,” I feared.

Down again and downstream, I could still feel its tension on the line. A little more line out. A little more line in. Swing the rod toward the net. More line in. Keep the indicator out of the water. More line in.


The female German Brown was a good size, but my daughter took the prize for the biggest catch of the day. Wading out of the river, I joined her and my nephew and prepared to walk back, our boots heavy with the waters of the Heber, to the waiting truck.

The kids had fun, as had I, and I didn’t have to talk about the one that got away.

Some folks say that fishing, even in its most elegant form, fly fishing, is cruel. Others disagree. While fishing isn't my only outdoor activity with my child, birdwatching, hiking and camping are among the others, it is the only one that directly involves another life. As fun as these outings can be, hours of standing in sunshine and rushing water surrounded by nature's sweet face, each time I find myself thinking of the life on the other end of the line. I wonder if "unfeeling pea-brain" is just a line that keeps me hooked on an activity that's inhumane.

Inhumane: a variant of inhuman and the opposite of humane. Let's consider that for a moment.

By definition, humane, a variant of human, is "having or showing compassion or benevolence," "inflicting the minimum of pain," "intended to have a civilizing or refining effect on people." While it may be the most refined and civilized method of fishing, is fly fishing, or any fishing, humane? Is tricking another life into biting a hook and then working it to the point of exhaustion and then finally killing or releasing it humane whether or not it feels pain or will remember the incident within the hour? I have to wonder, and if it's a question is it humane to continue?

I'm not hunting elephants into extinction and smiling as I hold their severed tails in the air, but if fly fishing is cruel then am I not as bad as someone who is hunting elephants to extinction? If I care enough to stop fly fishing altogether and just stick to hikes and watching birds with my little one, should I not also cease eating meat altogether? After all, there is nothing humane in meat production. Meat production is business and business is the bottom line, and there is nothing humane in the bottom line. What does it say that I've considered these things for decades and yet I persist?

It makes me human, not humane.

Humane is a variant of human, and we speak of being humane and yet the present and history of humanity is filled with slaughter and torture and cruelty. Funny that the word conveying our best desires is derived from the word that describes we who perpetrate or allow so much suffering.

A story I'm finishing up for beta review centers on technology's increasing enablement of our cruelty to animals and how our disregard for other life perpetuates the sort of thinking that allows us to be comfortable being cruel to each other. We're better than we used to be, we tell ourselves, but I have to wonder if we're just letting ourselves off the hook.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Monday Was The Case

Why did this 'bot take the plunge? Monday, most likely.

In other news:

I'm saddened by the loss of George Romero, although he hadn't produced anything watchable in decades. Still, he is firmly in my top ten filmmakers and his "Night of the Living Dead," "Dawn of the Dead," and "Creepshow" among my treasured films. Here's a link to Edgar "Shaun of the Dead" Wright's tribute.

We also lost Martin Landau. From my childhood favorite "Mission Impossible" through, well, all of the films you know, Martin Landau was a part of my life and a great talent who will be missed.

In happier news, I finally have my two greatest wishes for "Dr. Who". 1) A female Doctor and 2) a new showrunner. Honestly, as much as I enjoyed Capaldi's Doctor, and Missy, I'd quit suffering Moffat's run a while back, and I'm hoping that the new showrunner can get me pulled back in. Or not. There's too much great television right now, although I'll always have a spot for a good trip with The Doctor.

Oh, and my mental hiatus has included binge watching Orphan Black. Love. It. So. Much.


Sunday, July 16, 2017

My Spirit Animal Says "Hey"

I've been busy and tired. I haven't even wanted to write in weeks, although I still get the odd idea to jot down. Like most, I have my moods. This one will pass, and I'll be back at it in the wee spare hours.

It hasn't been the heat. It's been the humidity. Ugh. Having the laptop on me is too much. I need a remote neural interface.


Sunday, June 25, 2017


There's been a lot of life in my life of late, and a lot less writing. The life's been great, mostly, but I've missed the writing. It had reached the point where I was dreaming about my fingers hitting keys.

Also, I was at a loss for a weekly update on this blog, unless I was going to write something about writing withdrawal symptoms.

Then, this morning, I had a revelation about a story with which I'd been wrestling for a few years. Recently, I'd completed a third and quite different draft of the story which had addressed issues I'd had with the previous two, also quite different, drafts. I'd tried writing it from different perspectives. I'd tried three different settings, three different tones, and three different character sets yet no one version had fixed everything. The story I'd wanted to tell had continued to elude me.

In the dawn between slumber and waking it occurred to me that I had been doing a baby and bathwater bit on myself. So, when life gave me a break today, I took those three drafts and merged them into one draft. While it's a bumpy read at the moment, I can see the potential. I'm pleased with the tonal shifts, and the characters change or grow throughout their history in the tale.

This, my friends, is why writers never throw anything away.

Another merge happened when I got out of bed and took a peek at my FaceBarf feed. Good old CN had posted a link from The Guardian which gave me some needed insight into one of my characters and her motivations. Everything seems to be coming together like a zipper.

Now, if I can find the time to merge it further into a smooth narrative, it'll be ready for my beta readers.